Oops! I did it again...

Britney Spears always says it just right.

I wanted to share this story because it's happen on so many occasions across my life and the only difference I have now, is that I am aware of it and I take action to change it. So, let's jump into what actually happened.

Last week I was looking in the mirror and I was thinking how little effort I felt I was putting into my appearance everyday. In the days that followed, I started quizzing my other half on whether he, finds me attractive, does he wish I out more effort in? Despite his answers, I was certain he was lying and that he no longer found me sexy and that he really did wish I put more effort in. What came next, was me questioning my outfit choices and comparing myself to every woman we saw.

I then started to think about my other half going to the gym and all the women that would be there. All the women who would take pride in the way they look, wearing the nice clothes, hair all done and maybe a touch of makeup.

Now, I probably sound like a bit of a nutcase but my point here is that I started to believe that my partner had caused me to feel this way because, he wouldn't find me attractive which is why I no longer felt sexy.

In reality, I was feeling this way on my own. I had slipped into eating habits that didn't serve me, I had stopped putting in little to no effort into my appearance and that all lead me to here. Now, I love being able to dress casual and enjoy a snack however, if that eventually comes at the cost of how I look at myself then those habits do NOT serve me.

Blaming my partner was easy, it allowed me to be a 'victim' and put all the responsibility at his door and none at mine. Why is this key? By doing so, I then get to take no action and just keep on blaming, whereas, if I acknowledged that the feelings were coming from me, I also have to accept that I have to take action to change that. Now we don't live in that kind of world, we're not taught to take ownership of our feelings. We also blame and point fingers at the people around us, we allow ourselves to be the victim of our own story.

It's not an easy reality to face because no one likes to think of themselves as a victim but maybe you are reading this and doing the same thing. Are you blaming your partner, your parents, siblings, friends, you boss or even your followers for how you are feeling right now? You have the power and the choice to change this today! If I can get to this level of awareness then I know you can too, it might not be easy to start with but trust me it's worth it. When you see how much power and control you really have over your life, you grab hold and run with it.

I hope this resonated with you and would love to hear what came up, so head over to my Instagram @_turnanewpaige_ and send me a message.

Now,

Turnanewpage x