Jul 18, 20223 min read

How To Use Envy As Fuel

How Does Google Describe Envy?

Definition: A feeling of discontented or resentful longing aroused by someone else's possessions, qualities, or luck.

I have been feeling this a lot in the last few days or past week or if I'm being totally honest, past 6 months!

I follow a lot of amazing people on social media who are 'making moves' in the entrepreneur space and I am all for it.

However, what it does also show me is how 'little' I am doing to benefit my own life. I'm not bashing myself there at all, I have come a long way in the past 30 years on this planet. But, I want more! I want what others have because they have more freedom, more time, more financially security, better health and so many more things.

I'm Not Knocking My Life

I have a great life and I am so damn thankful for everything I have. Right now, I have money to cover my bills and to enjoy my evenings and weekends. I have a roof over my head, a comfy bed, loving partner, wonderful family and friends.

Deep down, I know I could do more with my life and feel even more empowered if I did so. I am showing up as a fraction of my true capability because I have followed the majority of the social norms expected of a white female living in the UK.

Is the grass greener over there side?

What Do I Want?

As mentioned before, I want more freedom! With more money comes more choices, more opportunities, more chance to help others. I could be changing other people's lives for the better, simply by changing mine. By leading the way, I could be an example to others, just like the people I follow on Instagram who are showing me the way.

I Need To Stop Hiding

Playing small is not brave, it's not amicable, it's suffocating. You help no-one playing small, least of all yourself. Everyday you play small, you slowly chip away at a part of yourself that craves for more. That's what I've been doing!

I'm watching from the side lines, wishing I was there and yet coming up with every EXCUSE under the sun as to why I can't.

Every time I make an excuse, I can feel the negative energy that puts into my body and it's drowning.

I want to get to my death bed and say:

"I fucking did it, I saw it and I made it happen! I never let anyone, least of all myself hold me back from being the best I can be"

Here's What You Can Do!

Ask yourself this:

What or who makes you feel envious? (Write down everything you think of)
Why does it make you jealous? (Somethings you don't really want, you just think you want it)
What do you really want? (Get clear and specific here, more money? Name exactly how much)
How in your life, has what you want?
Why don't you have it?
How can you start to go and get it?