How Heartbreak Helped Me
Love is NOT simple!
Did anyone else feel like Disney and films set you up to fail when it came to relationships.
No prince came and whisked me away at 16 to be his happy ever after.
I had to settle with men who treated me like absolute crap, TWICE!
Queue My First Boyfriend
I'm 19 years old and starting college, and that's where I meet him. My first serious boyfriend turned out to be a man who was 17 years older than me. I was definitely whisked away by the whole 'older man' thing, his looks, the excitement and my naivety. What followed was lies, cheating, emotional and physical abuse and a lot of heartbreak.
I was unprepared for a relationship and so found myself in one that took over my life.
It took me 4 years to finally find the strength to walk away but I was covered in scars.
Boyfriend Number 2 Please Enter
It's 2016 and I'm travelling Australia. At this moment I have just moved to Perth, Western Australia and I am living in a new hostel.
That's where I met him, now only 7 years older (I'm getting younger) and this time I got swept up in the drama and the need to want to be wanted.
That meant I put up with more head fucks, more lies and again, cheating.
Here's What I Learnt!
You don't get what you deserve, you get what you accept.
I do not in anyway shape or form condone the behaviour of my exes towards me. I do however take responsibility for allowing their treatment towards me to continue for so long.
Why did I allow it?
I didn't have enough love for myself
I wanted to fit in with the crowd and not be single
My emotions ruled my head
I saw the truth as evidence to back up all the negative beliefs I had about myself.
Had I learnt what it truly meant to love myself before loving another, I don't believe I would have even looked in their direction.
But I Wouldn't Change It
Despite, the pain, the tears, the lies and the cheating, I can finally say I am grateful for it all. I would never want to relive it but from all of that came a stronger me. I now have a wonderful relationship with an incredible man who treats me as I deserve and at a level I am happy to accept.
If I had met this person before my exes, there's a very big chance that I would have taken him for granted and missed all the wonderful qualities he had to offer. Qualities I discovered I wanted from my previous relationships.
You Deserve The Best Too
If right now, you are reading this and you have got this far, firstly I want to thank you. Secondly, I want you to know that, if you are currently in a toxic relationship, you can get out. You will find the strength inside and it will only make you stronger.
If you want or need more, I want you to head over to my Instagram:
and send me a message.
This is not a sales call, but one of support. If you need someone to hear you, I want to listen.
Now,
Turnanewpage x
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